Changes + Walk with me #6

Come on come on
I see no changes, wake up in the morning and I ask myself
'Is life worth living? Should I blast myself?'

 With this 2Pac quote I wanted to begin my new blog post because it is the thought that constantly flew through my head for the last week..

Sometimes the most painful changes are the best

Last week I moved out of the dorm for a few reasons, which made me move into my car.
After spending a few days drowning in my own tears I started to see it as an opportunity.
I always look out for adventures and the thought of living wherever I want to sounded amazing to me!!

I want to change my boring life. Go out and climb a mountain, swim to the end of a lake and travel a lot more!

In this one week I got to know so many interesting new people and had an amazing time :)

Here now the walk with me:

These are animals I saw at my way back from a wedding shower! :)
(except my truly madly deeply beloved dog Merlin)

Happy Easter

Happy Easter guys! :)
Today we went to a really nice place for breakfast with my aunt, uncle and my parents!
Later on my cousin and his family joined us.
We were in a garden next to the castle in Warcino, where we met an amazing stray dog.
She came to us to cadge some of the food and at first I was a little scared of her because she was scared and really thin and I thought she'd eat me xD Then I took some pictures of her and went on to take pictures of butterflies sitting on a tree. And I didn't even realized that she layed down next to me. I was really scared she would bite me if I'd move. That's why I started talking to her to make her more comfortable. She stayed right next to me for the whole photography trip and we got back to the brunch-place together.
I gave her some food and couldn't believe how amazing she was. I cuddled this flea-covered dog for a long time until we had to leave :( She was so innocent and kind that I still have a really bad conscience.
I have to persuade my aunt to take her to a vet, a shelter or even to her. She would make such a great family dog. On one hand it is amazing for her to live a free life outside and breathe the air of independence, but on the other hand it rains a lot in Poland and what if she doesn't find food?
I'll keep you up on the theme :D
Later we visited my grandma and uncle and ate til we looked like baloons!
Furthermore, two of my horses had birthday today!
The youngest one, my two year old stallion Zazou, and the oldest one, 28-year-old mare Arissa!
Zazou had an operation last tuesday because he hit his head against a wall and had a hole, yes a real hole, in his poor skull! He's an unlucky wretch!!
Here are some pictures of the day!

this is the dog I talked about!

I called her Helga <3

some cherry blossom

a peacock butterfly on a tree

my niece searching for gifts the easter bunny left for her

those eyes... I can't even! 

She tells whole stories with them!

If my house wasn't already full of dogs, I would totally take her home...

28 years old and still so wild

Zazou :)

And finally my personal easter bunny and polar bear 'Peter'

Thanks for your attention :*

Pockets full of stones

When I am sad I love to drive my car and sing 'What the water gave me' by Florence and her amazing machine as loud as I can! Yesterday my mom's aunt died and that made me think of my life.

At first: What is life? It can be over in a heartbeat and what will be left? Who am I? Who am I for others? What have I done with my life? Then: Why am I so different? Why can't I set up an normal friendship or any relationship? All these questions lead to one answer: I am a mess.

I can't be around the same people for a long period of time without starting to hate them. The smallest things annoy me. 

Then I thought about the time when I was really happy.. and that was in Germany where I will probably not live again.

I miss my old friends from back there. 

Today I'll write some more or less sentimental texts about some of my bestest friends eva :*

There is always this one person you want to tell exciting things immediately and can't wait to see her reaction!

For me it is my friend Jenni. She is and was always there for me and even if we had quite rough beef sometimes we always find back together. We also have the same music taste and hobbies.

Some people have a really bad influence on me. With Elisabeth it's the opposite... I think she has a really good impact on me and makes me a better person. We used to be really close and talk about things I have never really thought about before. I also miss her humour. She made me laugh a lot.

We know us such a long time and have never really talked about deep stuff since about two years ago. I have something like an on-off-friendship with Johanna. Either we love or hate eachother! :D Even if we hate each other, I'm sure I can trust her. And that's what makes an amazing friend.

Janin is a lot younger than me, but we spend about 5 years together in the same stable day by day and we are really close now even if a large distance separates us. When we go riding I feel free and we had such a fun time together. We did a lot of stupid things, but most were really cool :) Without her I'd be a totally different person.

I could talk five hours nonstop about the same thing with her. We don't know us for a long time and I really don't know why, but we became good friends really fast by talking about trite things over and over again.

We had such a fun time in the biology class. When we're together we laugh the whole time and Victoria is able to cheer me up within two seconds.

There are some other great friends like Drea, Annette or Mareike, but yesterday I thought for a long time about unique friendship types I'm sure I'll never have again. :(

Frida Kahlo - What the water gave me

The painting which inspired Florence Welch to write the homonymous song

I don't think anyone read this post, but if you did: THANK YOU :)

Cat Lady aka Walk with me #5

I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up as an old cat lady with a complete zoo at home instead of being a cool grandma -.-
I absolutely love animals and I treat them like my family.. 'cause basically there is no difference between animals and humans, right?
The thing I like most about having different kinds of animals are their relationships. It's really funny to see a crow playing with a dog or a cat with a horse.
We also have a great view on wild animals cooperating or fighting. You may have seen my pictures of the cranes and deers last time. Today a fox joined them!
I wanted to show you bits and pieces of the pictures I shot this morning from my cats and some wild animals.

my cat Korsza is really weird. I have had her for about 2 years now and she used to be really agressive and moody, but since she has been in contact with the dogs and my cat Saphira, she changed a lot. Since we moved to Poland she changed even more and hasn't scratched anyone since then!

She also plays with Saphira and spends the whole day hunting in the garden.

About eight or nine years ago Saphira chose us as her family. Soon after our dog had died and we had two young, adventurous female dogs. This black panther miniature appeared in our garden. I was so happy because I had always wanted a cat. My mom didn't allow me to touch her because she thought that the cat might be ill. Saphira came back every afternoon and my mom decided she could stay in our garage. So she would be my cat, but with a healthy distance :P

On my birthday I kidnapped Saphira and let her stay at home. She seemed to like it. From that day on she waited in front of the door to let her inside of the house. Someday my mom let her in, but she was just allowed to be in the floor and the laundry room. Soon she ruled the whole house and became the queen of our dogs and other animals. She was something like a substitude mother for most oft them. She is so calm! I think I have never seen an animal less aggressive nor more loving!

Here are a few pictures of our wild friends from this morning:

I hope you liked my cat lady stories and my wildlife pictures!

Love,

xx

Walk with me #4 + Puppy Pics

Hey Guys
I told you yesterday I would share an OOTD and an EMU with you, but as you might see in my pic my skin looks still bad and it would make it worse, if I'd put any make up on...
Today we went to a small Kashubian village called Borowy Młyn (kash.: Bòrowi Młin) to get some hay for the horses. One our way we saw lots of amazing lakes and other fantastic views.
We took the chance and went for a walk with our dog Saba.
Later on at the farm I shot some nice pics of the animals there :)
Feel free to take a look at them :P

a leap of spring

mom with saba

Now to my highlight! These cute dogs!! I can't even!!

a male mongrel

and here his smaller sister in the byre

sorry for the crappy quality, but the pic was much too dark to see that cute monster

she played with a cow

sorry, I'm not allowed to put on any make up yet because of the skin irritation

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back home we had some visitors again :)

And Sunny was glad we came back... This is her salutation

Here you can watch a cute video of the puppy and the cow I've

made! If you like it please give it a thumbs up and write a comment :)

The music is by one of my best friends, Elisabeth Harder!

Make sure to check out her soundcloud !

I hope these WWMs are not too boring for you!